To me, 70% portion in the word life belongs to friendship. Well, you can say that I am trying to be a dedicated friend. And eventhough I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember, I will not gonna regret the time that I might missed simply because I put my friendship above all odds. I love my friends, with all my heart.
Lately, I live my life differently. I used to be very controlled and introvert but lately, life have sucessfully bring the other part of me. The more relaxed, goofy, and definitely a louder version of myself.
Changes is never bad. Although I don’t know whether this version of me will help me to get things I want, things which normal people want. You know what? sometimes even when I already moved on from my past dissapointments, rejections, and unacknowledgment, I still crumble once in a while. Its like, those things keep telling me that I rather unwanted. Eventhough I’ve kinda changed on the outside, the inside part of me will not gonna stop shouting, telling that I am an outsider and I should have not be needy, wanting the same glorious thing that the majority of people in this earth are getting.
By saying that,am not gonna say that I’ve been putting a mask on just to be able to get accepted. But I do put on a mask everytime someone intentionally/unintetionally hurt me verbally just not express that he/she said things that is rude to me. Its just I hate drama. Though I’ll surely remember everything.
I don’t need another false sign. I’ll just take it and throw it as soon as I can because perhaps it means everything for me but means nothing to them.
One of these days, you’ll miss your train and come stay with me. We’ll have drinks and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you.
You’ll sleep here, I’ll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again at my convenience but we’d be good, we’d be great together.
#Taurus has undefeatable emotional strength. They’re capable of handling the severest of problems without shedding a single tear.
♉ Taurus: Taureans do not forget past injustices, and they also remember their past pain as well— and will remind you of it. The tragedy with a Taurus is that their pain is just as fresh today as it was the first time.
Hate to admit but fuck it. Its the truth
Feeling is what I keep inside, only to myself. For the sake of the people I truly care about.
Lately, seeing life in my perspective easily piss me off. Its not like I’ve lost my magic to get everything right, but knowing that my perspective isn’t actually current anymore, I still, have to think that I have to make it work.
Luckily there are friends who simply love me the way I am and I guess that’s what I need. Simplicity. They say that life is simple but from what I know and my experience so far lead me to a different point of view. Or maybe, “life is simple” are just a mere quote that actually can’t dictate people because life is obviously NOT simple.
There are another quote that I think is ineffective. One of it is, “money can’t buy happines”. Well I personally think money certainly can bring you happiness to a certain level. Its us, human who can’t appreciate the power that money can bring and keep asking for more. You can be happy if you buy the right thing. Not the thing you need but the thing you want. Yes, I like to think that what can make you happy is being indulged in certain things you want because what people “need” will eventually bore you out later.
You need to do this, and that, buy this and that, the items that you don’t like yet you gotta have it anyway. Its boring no?
Sometimes I’d like to think that, what if words are just words. What people say is right actually isn’t. That’s the main reason why I have to stick with my perspective. So that I don’t lose my traces, my thoughts, and my very own core.